Holy Communion 1st day at home

Today is the 1st day UMM partakes Holy Communion at home.

Will be doing it daily from now on.

Commit the whole family unto the Lord, YSL, Sson, Lyn & Belle.

37 inches LCD TV

SMK bought a new 37" LCD TV in NZ - NZ$1,000.

So happy about it. Watching Shrek 2 on that day with kids.

winter in NZ

Now is winter or more of raining season in NZ.

workplace incidents

Last week & this week are the most "concern + challenging" time for SMK and also for UMM.

SMK's workplace "incidents" at NZ & PM have caused much concern + this had led to more worrying to UMM.

NZ:
1) Label delay issue
2) Label wrongly printed

UMM also believed that God will protect her and lead her to victory as always.

Stay strong SMK !!

1010 at LCCT ANM

This morning, UMM prayed and pleading to God for abundance + miracle financial breakthrough for a new house in NZ. Sort of a gift for our wedding at NZ.

Then UMM received a phone call from Pastor Wong asking UMM to help to drive church van to fetch the Korean team from airport.

He specifiedly mentioned that the korean team arriving at the airport at 1010 .... huh ??!! Is this a repeat assurance from God again ?? UMM experienced too many 1010 incidents (POS office waiting number, bank waiting number, parked next to a car bearing the same number, etc).

It is as tho' that God is repeating assuring UMM that everything will be alright. Not to worry. When time comes, the finances will be taken care of.

Thank you LORD.

call on ME

This morning devotion took me to Psalm 50:15 ..

"Then call on me when you are in trouble, and I will rescue you, and you will give me glory".

The LORD don't need bulls or goats for sacrifices, for all the animals in the forest are HIS and the LORD owns the cattle on a thousands hills. vv 9-10.

What HE wants from us is the thanksgiving v 23.

Another label problem

Today, UMM still concerned about SMK works. Especially after what had happened last week.

Today another more damaging label error had happened, but thanked God for HIS protection and covering - the mistake did not involved her.

The other colleague tried to ask SMK to help, but SMK is smart enough not to volunteer as this will somehow brings more stained to her.

Continue to pray for SMK.

e card i love u

received another "I Love You" e-card from SMK .... so happy !!!!

After not hearing from her for a week, this is indeed a refreshing moment indeed. We are so in love and been away really making us missing each other so much.

Hep A and B final

Went to get my Hep A & B injection.

The doctor said that these are my final injections which can last for many years.

As I recalled, the 1st injection was done last year and at that time, UMM & SMK have not planned for UMM to go for the Sponsorship Visa matters. The injection was for health precaution.

Now, coming to it, actually God is preparing all these for the sake of UMM's moving to NZ. Should UMM do it because of NZ, then the final injections would not be possible due to the waiting period.

UMM thanked God for HIS planning and grace.

Portable toilet

Hmmm ... what can I said about my darling SMK ..... she is so brilliant !!!

Since the apartment has only 1 toilet and we have 4 + 1 giant coming soon ... hahahaha ... it is critical to improvised our "emergency" output .. hahahah

SMK bought a canvas wardrobe, zip it and put a potty pot (tham pui) .... hahaha.

Anyway, before that, UMM also done some experiments and take precaution upon himself until SMK & kids are out:

1) don't drink water 1st thing in the morning
2) don't eat breakfast
3) if want to "do it", do in the midnite
4) don't over eat or drink

Anyway - the best is - UMM already told God that we need a house with at least 3 bathrooms with toilets.

blankets

Today SMK went shopping with kids and got themselves electric blankets as winter is coming soon. And at the same time she also thought of me and prepare one for me.

Thank you, darling

SMK workplace hiccups

This whole week, SMK encountered a few "hiccups" at her workplace.

1) The label designer, the export & sales that causes delay of export.

2) "S" from PM didn't perform

UMM praying for her safety and covering from God.

SMK heated up

UMM called SMK from PM office via Voip.

Before UMM can finished sharing about the PM staff salary hold up, SMK was heated up.

UMM knows that SMK was in high level of stress.

UMM does not feel angry and upset, but filled with concerned and worried for her. UMM even tell her gently to take care at the end of the voip.

In the past, UMM will feel agitated or "siao chi" over this petty matters.

Reflecting back, it is God who changed me.

I am yours forever

Got home and received NZ documents from SMK, and at the end of all the "to-do-list" - written "I am yours forever"

And UMM belongs to SMK forever + forever.

Praise God !!

skype very long conversation

We have been talking on skype at least 3 hours per skype !!!

Since last Thursday until today continuously .... wow !!!

Engagement Dinner

Will post the photos ...

Wedding Photos

Wedding photo Session from 10:00 am till 6:00 pm ... wow

Conclusion: great photos

cons: Did not allow us to express our own natural loving expression. Clothing is bit strict . Too much holding flower . ... hahaha

UMM proposed to SMK

UMM started the proposal night with a dance and write a big love shape with the word JMA loves YSL on his belly before showing SMK the proposal ring.

And SMK did not jump into it immediately but bringing both of us into a "Indepth Thinking Process" session.

SMK asked UMM to close his eyes as UMM go thru the life journey process with SMK + kids + new environment.

1) There are Ideal Environment & Problem Environment

2) UMM as the provider - house, car & diamond ring

After going thru the process, SMK stand on the square chair, asked UMM to take off his pant and only wear the boxer, knelling down, with his left hand on his heart and raising right hand to pledge his love for SMK.

With it, SMK accepted UMM proposal and with it, the ring finally slip into SMK's finger.

The whole proposal session took 1 hour !!!

Bumped into 1010

UMM went to post office to pay road tax. As UMM pressed the ticket machine, came number 1010.

After finishing the road tax renewal, walked to the parking machine, paused for awhile. Better go and buy some photo frames.

Reached the shop and what i found .... ??? No one could believe it !! The edge of the photo frame printed with number 1010 !!!

Below are some of the photos taken which related to 1010 .... (customer credit card, date on the mobile phone, car park,

SMK passes Driving Test

Praise God !!!

SMK passed her driving test !!!

The last 3 at 3 pm at March (3) setback did not dampened SMK determination and spirit !! Now at last the 4 pm at April (4) prevailed !!

UMM was so happy. Now UMM can zzz well ... hahahaha ...

Praise the Lord for HIS grace and abundant blessings upon SMK.

SMK's job in NZ is assured and confirmed !!!

When ppl need 3 months, SMK only needs 3 weeks !!! Praise the LORD for watching over SMK welfare and success.

Engagement card

11 days to KLIA

In another 11 days - SMK will be back to Malaysia !!

UMM going to hug her and never let her go !!!!

QA lau thuar pooi poh and name list

Received email from SMK, in her email, I sensed something is not right.

1st, she questioned UMM how come I could left out J.Jie name out from the Engagement Dinner namelist ...even after I apologized for the sincerely overlooked.

Then SMK mentioned that she needs to work extra hard so her job be permanent.

UMM gave her a call, and found out that the QA "lau thuar pooi poh" is giving some hard times to SMK !!

UMM thanked God that the Lord's had imparted patience & endurance to both of us. In workplace & relationship.

The role as husband is to be supportive & "die-to-self".

UMM can understand SMK stressful moment at NZ, in time like these - the best solution is to listen & pray. No need to argue or fight for self-righteousness.

SMK heart cold

SMK during the skype mentioned that her heart is cold, even to her love for UMM.

???? We have been apart too long and also the load of life in NZ.

God, please rekindle the fire of love in us and continue to intervene for us.

We know our defense system is down - better keep ourselves protected from temptation, just like the one UMM had. Don't join friend to Thai.

UMM advised SMK to mediate 1 Cor 13:4-7 that speaks LOVE is patient and kind ...

UMM meditates upon it when UMM misses SMK alot. Thru' these verses, it keep on giving strength to UMM ...

SMK, I will holding you up with prayers. I hope that you continue to hold on.

Love you forever.

UMM

Pc Explosion reflect

Though the PC explosion incident, it makes UMM to reflect on life.

When bad things happened, we easily blamed, murmured or angry or even utter the famous phrase "why me?".

UMM find that the explosion happened at the right time and place. UMM is the "pillar" and the "protector". Keeping others from harm especially now - with a family of my own.

Bible said that don't worry the things that causes injury to the flesh but worry the things that can destroy the soul.

PC exploded update

Just received a call that the power supply short-circuit and did not damage the motherboard.

Thank God for his mercy and grace.

PC exploded

This afternoon UMM took SMK home PC and install at UMM house.

After connecting all the cable and switch on the PC - "poofff !!!" ... smoke pop out from the PC ...
Gave me a fright !!

What would happen if the PC exploded at NZ ? It may have scared off SMK + kids, it may be too hard to get a spare-parts or maybe too expensive !!

Anyway - send for repair ... waiting for the costings.

SMK called that she got the full-time job at Good Health Corp !!!!

UMM was so happy and rejoice over this news.

The Lord cares and loves SMK alot and indeed SMK had weathered the storms and now into the calm and shinning weather.

In all things - never grow weary in prayer, even we may not see happening in physical realm but in spiritual realm - great and mighty things are happening ...

i miss u

When SMK sms "I miss u" .... I sensed something is not right. QUickly gave her a call - found out she has a very bad eye irritation that causes her vision to be "cloudy" and swollen.

When I heard about it - it really worried me. Having no one besides her and taking care of her and kids ...

Separation is not good !!

engagement lunch

We are starting to shortlist number of ppl attending the lunch.

Total 3 tables ...

Drivin Test 2

SMK callled that she din not passed the driving test for the 2nd time and relates how she got nervous + stress out when her "supervisor" was nowhere to be seen. She has 10 minutes before the test ans SMK will go around shops & parking lots trying to get any stranger to be her "supervisor".

Thanked God her supervisor called and was waiting at different side of the parking lot. Anyway - SMK already stressed out and it has afffected her driving test.

Just 2 points away from the passing marks !!

birthday card 2010 a miracle

A miracle just happened .... SMK received her birthday today, which UMM sent on the same day UMM sent the valentine's card.

SMK received the valentine's card and not the birthday card on valentine's day. And on her exact day of her birthday - she received her birthday card !!! And not the other way round ... imagine receiving birthday card on valentine and valentine's card on birthday ... hahaha

God really is a miracle God. HE even cares for little matter such as this !!!

Praise God !!

Wedding photo and video - April 2010

A few minutes ago, during our skype ... SMK asked UMM to check the price quote for our wedding photos and video shooting when SMK is back on April !!!! .... praised God !!!!!


We have decided April 11 (Sun) and Apr 10 + 11 (if can't finish in 1 day) .. SMK willl be back to NZ on April 15.

Valentine's card from SMK

Went to Botanic to paste 2 "Blessing" label given by church and while checking the letter box - found a red color envelope.

My 1st thought was a CNY card from SMK, but to my greatest joy - Valentine's card !!

No amount of food, angpow or smses greeting can compare to the Valentine's card that I received from SMK !!!!

UMM really on cloud 9 ... (will upload the card later)

And when UMM goes online .... received another e-card from SMK ..

SMK said i love u

SMK said ... I love u on skype ...

House in Long Bay 2012

SMK would like to buy a house with land for horses, cows & sheep at Long Bay area.

Target 2012 June.

SMK loved the seaside and the hills and the valley.

Engage 101010 Wedding 120211

SMK suggest that 101010 be our engagement and wedding on 2011 Valentine's day.

Have a engagement dinner at Malaysia.

Child Education

Today SMK was so busy getting enrollment information for child care education (ECE) for herself and also UMM.

SMK passed Driving licence

SMK passed her driving licence and now the next step is the pratical part.

SMK kept from UMM that she had to sit for the 2nd time for the test as she doesn't want UMM to be fearful knowing that the exam is tough and when UMM comes over, too afraid to take the test .

ODB for UMM only

At 3:30 am Malaysia time - UMM received a sms from SMK ....

The sms:
1) apologized for not knowing what UMM been thru'
2) UMM web target
3) Our daily bread today article for UMM
4) with love

"According to the Bible, he’s right. Peter warned that in the last days people would doubt God because it seems He is slow (“slack”) in fulfilling His promise to return. Peter pointed out, however, that this seeming slowness is a good thing. God is actually demonstrating His patience by giving people more time to repent (2 Peter 3:9), and also being true to His character, as in patient or slow to anger (Ex. 34:6).

We too must be slow to become angry—and slow to speak (James 1:19). According to James, “quickness” is reserved for our ears. We’re supposed to be quick to listen. Think about how much trouble we could avoid if we learned to listen—really listen, not just stop talking—before we speak."

I am still right

Reached church late as received a call from Saudi's group for skype. Thank God UMM left SMK place at 7:00 am for the same purpose.

As UMM reached the church around 8:37 am, the song "What a Friend we have in Jesus" touched UMM heart. The song said that we carry alot of burdens and cares ourselves because we did not put them in prayer. It touches UMM's heart.

When Rev James Yap came out to speak with the title "With God things are possible" - it further encouraged UMM.

That afternoon, SMK sms UMM for VOIP. And as UMM shared what had happened in the morning service .. how the Lord encouragd UMM.

But SMK start to judge UMM and blaring away and accused UMM for being too self-centered with his own feelings. And said that if SMK like that, she would have died many times.

??? .... UMM was at lost why she said that ?? UMM is sharing encouragement and not complaining or murmuring.

Later when SMK found out that it was because of AU matters and not UMM personal matters, SMK said "Well - I am still right - even tho' half right that something is bothering you".

SMK always "right" and "self-sufficient".

Anyway - we ended talking other things & prayer.

cannot reach stupid buyer

The AU brokers and seller's mandate called UMM as they could not reach the stupid buyer. UMM also called but could not get him.

The day was not better than yesterday but UMM keeps on praying.

UMM stayed by the computer almost whole day as it is urgent. Hear beat pumping very fast.

3 bad news in a day

This evening as UMM tried to unwind the bad mood due to the lost of 2 AU deals at the botanic by having a jog.

Half way - UMM received a call from Fion that Sharon tendered her resignation !! Wow ... the day is really filled with BIG news !!

UMM nearly collapsed. My 1st thought "Siow Ling could not take this anymore. Just a week before, Grace resigned and now another staff tendered resignation". And at the same time I need to be strong and comfort Fion as she asked whether she is the one that caused all these. UMM doesn't want another staff to resign.

UMM told Fion not to tell Siow Ling as it is weekends and let Siow Ling be "free" from all these. And ask Fion to pray & talk to Sharon.

UMM really doesn't know what to do except jog + pray.

Build nest together

VOIP with SMK today ...

UMM said that he does not want to build the nest alone but to build it together with SMK cos this new nest belongs to both of us.

This new nest will be built with God as our foundation and bears with the fruits of the spirit.

voice of trutth with lyrics

Voice of Truth

old and gray sexy couple

UMM shared with SMK about what happened during the company dinner ..

SMK said she saw a very old couple (age more than 75) at the beach having sun bath .. very sexy .. hahaha.

The wife was on walking stick and on wheel chair wearing bikini. The husband will walk over and gave her food to eat and lay besides her ...

Hmmm ... as sexy as SMK & UMM .... when we are 100 years old ... 42 + 40 + 20 = 102 years .... !!! wow

The champion

My proud winner - my lovely wife .... hahaha

God brings peace and UMM really loves SMK

During this morning Sunday Service praise & worship, a song touched me so much that tears just flow out.

The verse that said "God brings us peace that guard my heart, our help in time of need and the hope that leads us on. HE alone deserves all the glory."

UMM immediately sms to SMK to tell her that UMM really love her !! .... and tears just continues to flows ...

Touched SMK wound and Psalms 71 old and gray

This morning, SMK sms to UMM about the church sermon that touches her life. The sermon (Psalms 71) & the song "Voice of Truth" touched her wound.

UMM hope that the wound is healed by the "touch".

UMM immediately looked into Psalm 71, and it reflect what UMM had observed yesterday nite at the company dinner - " ... Do not cast me away when I am old; do not forsake me when my strength is gone."

The promised that UMM made to SMK when she 1st asked me the question pop up this morning.

Yes .. Yap Siow Ling, I want to put this into our marriage vows that even we grow old & gray - I, Ang Jau Meng will still love you & not forsake you.

UMM loves SMK even aged

Hmmm ... how would UMM starts ??

Should I start talking about food, restaurant or people ? I am totally lost as my mind & heart are always with SMK .... hahaha .... really !!!

Mixture of people - from kids to teens to adult to old people. Tonite - UMM observed more to the older people, especially old -old aunties .... UMM is not pervert lar !! Hahaha ...

UMM recalled that SMK did asked me before whether UMM will still love her when she aged .... and at that time - without hesitation UMM said YES !

Tonite - after looking and observing, UMM answer is still YES !!

SMK e-Love card

Received on Dec 4, 2009 when SMK saw that UMM was too worried about her going to Beijing alone ....

Aunty visit terrible at NZ

SMK said that her "auntie visit" is very terrible & scary yesterday. Too much blood and stains. She felt very uncomfortable.

This worried UMM alot.

Somehow UMM this morning sms to SMK came in timely. She encouraged by it.

UMM prayed that she will be getting better after stops taking the aspirin for awhile.

Skype with the most beautiful woman

Today the lesser-hair UMM skype with the very-hairy woman .. hahaha SMK mentioned that "auntie visit" very kau-lat. Hope that it isn't a very bad sign.

Continue to pray for her.

SMK mentioned that kids can't wait for her to finish preparing the roast chicken ... very sedap !!!

Model in car magazine

As UMM go to a popular book store in Jaya Jusco, trying to get a new inspiration for the web design - found this magazine.

The model may look young, curvy shape and wear a sexy dress but there is something missing from it.

UMM doesn't feel anything. She is so empty !!

SMK looks more sexier than this model, even SMK just put on casual wear. UMM loved when SMK wore the up-to-knee jeans, red color short pant, long black color pants, jeans ... actually whatever SMK wears, she always look beautiful and sexy !!

Her natural & inner beauty and radiance with godly image really made SMK outstanding !!

UMM saw "life" & "fulfillment" & "abundance" in SMK. Something that is beyond description.

SMK got ummpphhhh !!! hahaha

Love Poem for my darling Yap Siow Ling

If I could have just one wish,
I would wish to wake up everyday
to the sound of your breath on my neck,
the warmth of your lips on my cheek,
the touch of your fingers on my skin,
and the feel of your heart beating with mine...
Knowing that I could never find that feeling
with anyone other than you.

- Jaumeng

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NZ time zone

Before SMK left to NZ, she set the clock on the left to NZ time zone ... hahaha

Love me Love me not

As I gazed at the bed sheets & pillows at SMK place, UMM counted that there are 67 "love me" and 18 "love me not" altogether.

Imagine ... we wake up each morning wondering if today he/she loves me or loves me not ???

Dearest darling Yap Siow Ling, God LOVES U DAY + NITE ... and this is for SURE !!

Love4Ever

jaumeng

Get used to it ??

Heard from somewhere long time ago that "you will get used to it".

Well until today, UMM still not getting "used to it" without SMK being by my side. Even it had been 12 days since she left to NZ.

Those who said that don't know anything !!!

Anyway, this is only a short separation, UMM has faith in God that we will join as one unit & love + cares + share our lives till very ooold + beautiful + sexy age ... hahaha

Peace in SMK - stone brush

At 12:30pm today, we are to VOIP but was delayed due as SMK did not on the modem. Thank God that UMM sms her or else .. UMM thought that SMK is not at home ... missed her.

Well, at the beginning, we were on skype - wow !!! SMK still looks a beautiful as before !! UMM only can speak for awhile as SMK dad came in, then her nephew, then her mon, then her sister .. hahahah ... UMM need to wait lar hahaha

We continue with our VOIP, had to off the skype as kids were distracted. SMK shared about

1) the church: mostly old ppl, praise & worship - a guitarist, pianist, flute player, a drummer .. forgot got or not. SMK said that the church can use the Bible program to display Bible verse. Belle didn't join their Sunday School as today is the 1st time - shy. Front of the church got supermarket & pasar pagi nearby.

2) SMK bought some stuffs very cheap. Like shower cap, forks & spoons, etc somewhere between 50 cents to NZ$4 (cauliflower & cabbage) .. SMK was so happy ...

3) SMK mentioned that alot of sales happening at weekend, some of her stuffs that she bought & ordered were on sale ... aiyahhhhh .... Never mind lar, now we know - next time buy at weekend.

4) They went to the beach for their packed from home sandwich breakfast. The beach has a few "tiered" section. Both the end of the beach has cliff and SMK saw bungalows - lots of seagulls "joined" their breakfast .. hahaha

UMM shared with her about the Oct NZ trip. Getting a few "bachelors" to join the trip .. hahaha .. the bachelors don't know what is the occasion yet - better !!! hahaha surprised them !!!

UMM shared about the burning of churches in MAL, the price of fuel going up for 2000 cc cars, and a bit of AU matters.

SMK also wants UMM to bring to her (1) "turnip stone brush" ... that kind of stone in her bathroom that shed off dead foot skin cell ... hahaha and (2) stew sweet pork cans .

UMM needs to write them down and transfer to masterlist or else can forget lar ... recall this method been used in ISO document control work flow ... hahaha.

UMM always had SMK in prayers day & nite & in every meals.

NZ church

Today SMK + kids went to a church nearby her place.

SMK said that the church has less than 100 ppl ... more like English Service. Very few asians and most of the ppl "lau-lau" (old) ... hahahaha...

NZ New car

Today SMK got her new "recond" 2005 Nissan Sunny for NZ$6,500 plus + a new number plate FFY276.

VOIP

Today is the 2nd time VOIP with SMK - we update lot of things.

SMK said that she may come back on Good Friday, for the 13485 training provided PM can get 7 participants .. so far 3 already.

So UMM will push PM to get the ppl cos UMM really missed SMK.

JMA + YSL Jan 2010

My only and dearest darling Yap Siow Ling,

“Love is patient; love is kind and envies no one.
Love is never boastful, nor conceited, nor rude;
never selfish, not quick to take offense.
There is nothing love cannot face;
there is no limit to its faith,
its hope, and endurance.
In a word, there are three things
that last forever: faith, hope, and love;
but the greatest of them all is love.”

For the past 1 1/2 years when we began to nurture our relationship, we have more thorns than roses ... but with our constant prayers, encouragements, sharing, faithfulness, and believed - our days were filled with more & more roses. No doubts there will be thorns as we continue to journey our life together for the next 40 years + 20 extra golden years ... hahaha ... but we shall overcome.

I always confessed that for us to be together is a miracle. The miracle that came from Heaven to earth.

Darling, what had happened in the past is history. What we need to focus now is our future. We made mistakes and some of them can be undo & some cannot be undo or redeemed.

We have our own issues, some issues can't be solved overnite, days, months or even years but as long as God is at our side - it is possible ... 1 step at a time with me holding you + you holding me.

I asked you what I can do for you cos' you are so self-sufficient. You said "We compliment each other".

You & me are now a new creation. In Romans 8:1 said, "Therefore NOW there is NO condemnation for those who are in Christ Jesus."

Darling, you will always be my heartbeat, the apple of my eyes, always beautiful & sexy and always 55kg to me.

You asked me whether I would still love you, praise you, admire your beauty when both of us grow older .... the answer is still YES !!

Darling, both of us have grown up over the years.

For you:

1) You've learnt to control your temper, pray more and open yourself to be loved once again.

2) You have "let go" the past hurts, brokenness, grief, sadness, betrayal, hatred and anger. And let God comes in & for me to share your life.

For me:

1) Know what it means to care & love someone deeply.

2) To PDCA in all things (sometimes drop-drop or blur-blur ... hahaha).

3) Share responsibilty and selfless.

In moving forward, we must break the chain of our past.

Let us saw the chain together with the help of the LORD.

Love4Ever

Ang Jau Meng

(02:13 pm - 14/01/2010)

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Sun and moon come out missed SMK

Afternoon went to SMK parent house and gam-gam SMK mom came back from hospital routine check up.

She asked me whether UMM think of SMK or not?

I told her, "The moment the sun comes out - I think of her + missed her, at night - the moment the moon comes out I also think of her + missed her"

Hmmm ... day + night lor ... hahaha

Take care of kids in NZ

Received SMS from SMK from NZ this morning asking whether UMM could go th NZ earlier to take care of the kids as there is a full time job available.

UMM replied, "no problem - u go ahead & apply the job". Even at that time, UMM was thinking about how he is going to leave his job here, what he is going to do there, where is he going to stay, etc .. but yet UMM always putting SMK needs as priority.

SMK is a miracle in UMM life

Started the morning cleaning up the house ... hmmm ... became a norm after been with SMK .. hahaha.

Later in the afternoon, as UMM sat down and reflected what had happened ... maybe this is the reason why God allowed the previous 2 of SMK maids to ran away .. hahaha

For the past 8 months or so, both of us worked together to clean, washing, cooking, outing, meals, watching movies, etc ... in these time also relationship between the kids + UMM also drawn closer.

Though there are still many days of life journey ahead of us, with God's help - we shall made it through.

Sometimes when bad or difficult things happened in our life causes hurt, angry and frustrated at the moment. But we don't know that it is actually a blessing in disguised.

Spending my whole life with SMK is the most honorable & beautiful things.

UMM always said that SMK is a miracle to UMM's life.

No one is as special as SMK - considerate, kind hearted, strong, soft, wise, beautiful, understanding and most of all ... has a full heart for God.

SMK - knowing you is the greatest moment in UMM's life.

Take Care in NZ.

tears from heaven

today is the 2nd day without SMK.

Woke up at 5:00 am, read Bible & SMS to SMK, and then went for a walk at the lake at 7 am.

Called Bernard Chen at NZ, and while talking with him, tears came out from UMM eyes when mentioning to Bernard to help SMK with some stuffs. And then it rained heavily here in Botanic.

On the phone, Bernard said that it is raining now at NZ which according to him is unusual during summer.

Maybe it is the same tears that flowed from UMM.

SMK leaving to NZ

UMM still stunned & could not believe that SMK had gone to N.Z tonite.Even as UMM is writing this entry, UMM heart is still pounding with unbelief.

Thank God that uncle Jee accompanied me tonite as UMM really "lost" without SMK besides him. The air of loneliness start to creep in and "missing" her is too much to bear.

Got back home at 11:45pm, write this blog and off to SMK's house .... to an empty house, without SMK to greet & hug UMM.

I remember a saying:

A house - not a home
A bed - not a sleep, etc ...

SMK, UMM misses u !!!!!

SMK farewell prayer and dinner

The new pastor Yap prayed for SMK and kids and UMM took photos. UMM purposely took camera today cos today also SMK + kids last Holy Communion Service with us.

SMK later said that she surprised that UMM brought camera ... hahaha

Later, the church leaders made appointment for her farewell dinner. UMM didn't join in cos' UMM is not in the pastoral board anymore + this farewell is for SMK + kids.

So UMM spent the nite install Bible into HTC and mp3.

Kiki bye-2

Today, UMM drove SMK dad lorry and sent KiKi away to Sson's ah kong house.

UMM doesn't feel awkward when reached their place, maybe due to UMM encounter with C a few days ago at SMK house.

Anyway, the past is history, now need to focus on future.

Tea time

After finishing the name list and phone numbers for the NZ related, UMM suddenly had the urged for a "tea-time" breaks.

We had it at the study room, and like always, UMM's "little brother" shoot up straight !! Hahaha..

We had our tea-break at the study room and later moved into the bathroom for our ultimate "S" moment.

We were so close and glued more than an elephant glue !!

Milky morning

We had our "intimacy" .... UMM said, "hmmmmm ... fresh "milk" ... hahaha

Spent the day alone

SMK + UMM spent the whole day packing the NZ stuffs, clean the house & format the 2 personal computers.

UMM fried eggs, sausages, toast the bread & milo for breakfast. Had cup noodles at home cos too tired to go out.

Went for 1 station for dinner (chicken chop) ... was quite late when we had our dinner .. around 10:30 pm.

It was a wonderful day & "honeymoon" ... hahaha

New Year with SMK at bed side

Happy New Year 2010 darling !!!

Waking up this morning with SMK at my bed side ... what a wonderful feeling !!

Both of us shared the same feeling.