Build nest together

VOIP with SMK today ...

UMM said that he does not want to build the nest alone but to build it together with SMK cos this new nest belongs to both of us.

This new nest will be built with God as our foundation and bears with the fruits of the spirit.

voice of trutth with lyrics

Voice of Truth

old and gray sexy couple

UMM shared with SMK about what happened during the company dinner ..

SMK said she saw a very old couple (age more than 75) at the beach having sun bath .. very sexy .. hahaha.

The wife was on walking stick and on wheel chair wearing bikini. The husband will walk over and gave her food to eat and lay besides her ...

Hmmm ... as sexy as SMK & UMM .... when we are 100 years old ... 42 + 40 + 20 = 102 years .... !!! wow

The champion

My proud winner - my lovely wife .... hahaha

God brings peace and UMM really loves SMK

During this morning Sunday Service praise & worship, a song touched me so much that tears just flow out.

The verse that said "God brings us peace that guard my heart, our help in time of need and the hope that leads us on. HE alone deserves all the glory."

UMM immediately sms to SMK to tell her that UMM really love her !! .... and tears just continues to flows ...

Touched SMK wound and Psalms 71 old and gray

This morning, SMK sms to UMM about the church sermon that touches her life. The sermon (Psalms 71) & the song "Voice of Truth" touched her wound.

UMM hope that the wound is healed by the "touch".

UMM immediately looked into Psalm 71, and it reflect what UMM had observed yesterday nite at the company dinner - " ... Do not cast me away when I am old; do not forsake me when my strength is gone."

The promised that UMM made to SMK when she 1st asked me the question pop up this morning.

Yes .. Yap Siow Ling, I want to put this into our marriage vows that even we grow old & gray - I, Ang Jau Meng will still love you & not forsake you.

UMM loves SMK even aged

Hmmm ... how would UMM starts ??

Should I start talking about food, restaurant or people ? I am totally lost as my mind & heart are always with SMK .... hahaha .... really !!!

Mixture of people - from kids to teens to adult to old people. Tonite - UMM observed more to the older people, especially old -old aunties .... UMM is not pervert lar !! Hahaha ...

UMM recalled that SMK did asked me before whether UMM will still love her when she aged .... and at that time - without hesitation UMM said YES !

Tonite - after looking and observing, UMM answer is still YES !!

SMK e-Love card

Received on Dec 4, 2009 when SMK saw that UMM was too worried about her going to Beijing alone ....

Aunty visit terrible at NZ

SMK said that her "auntie visit" is very terrible & scary yesterday. Too much blood and stains. She felt very uncomfortable.

This worried UMM alot.

Somehow UMM this morning sms to SMK came in timely. She encouraged by it.

UMM prayed that she will be getting better after stops taking the aspirin for awhile.

Skype with the most beautiful woman

Today the lesser-hair UMM skype with the very-hairy woman .. hahaha SMK mentioned that "auntie visit" very kau-lat. Hope that it isn't a very bad sign.

Continue to pray for her.

SMK mentioned that kids can't wait for her to finish preparing the roast chicken ... very sedap !!!

Model in car magazine

As UMM go to a popular book store in Jaya Jusco, trying to get a new inspiration for the web design - found this magazine.

The model may look young, curvy shape and wear a sexy dress but there is something missing from it.

UMM doesn't feel anything. She is so empty !!

SMK looks more sexier than this model, even SMK just put on casual wear. UMM loved when SMK wore the up-to-knee jeans, red color short pant, long black color pants, jeans ... actually whatever SMK wears, she always look beautiful and sexy !!

Her natural & inner beauty and radiance with godly image really made SMK outstanding !!

UMM saw "life" & "fulfillment" & "abundance" in SMK. Something that is beyond description.

SMK got ummpphhhh !!! hahaha

Love Poem for my darling Yap Siow Ling

If I could have just one wish,
I would wish to wake up everyday
to the sound of your breath on my neck,
the warmth of your lips on my cheek,
the touch of your fingers on my skin,
and the feel of your heart beating with mine...
Knowing that I could never find that feeling
with anyone other than you.

- Jaumeng

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NZ time zone

Before SMK left to NZ, she set the clock on the left to NZ time zone ... hahaha

Love me Love me not

As I gazed at the bed sheets & pillows at SMK place, UMM counted that there are 67 "love me" and 18 "love me not" altogether.

Imagine ... we wake up each morning wondering if today he/she loves me or loves me not ???

Dearest darling Yap Siow Ling, God LOVES U DAY + NITE ... and this is for SURE !!

Love4Ever

jaumeng

Get used to it ??

Heard from somewhere long time ago that "you will get used to it".

Well until today, UMM still not getting "used to it" without SMK being by my side. Even it had been 12 days since she left to NZ.

Those who said that don't know anything !!!

Anyway, this is only a short separation, UMM has faith in God that we will join as one unit & love + cares + share our lives till very ooold + beautiful + sexy age ... hahaha

Peace in SMK - stone brush

At 12:30pm today, we are to VOIP but was delayed due as SMK did not on the modem. Thank God that UMM sms her or else .. UMM thought that SMK is not at home ... missed her.

Well, at the beginning, we were on skype - wow !!! SMK still looks a beautiful as before !! UMM only can speak for awhile as SMK dad came in, then her nephew, then her mon, then her sister .. hahahah ... UMM need to wait lar hahaha

We continue with our VOIP, had to off the skype as kids were distracted. SMK shared about

1) the church: mostly old ppl, praise & worship - a guitarist, pianist, flute player, a drummer .. forgot got or not. SMK said that the church can use the Bible program to display Bible verse. Belle didn't join their Sunday School as today is the 1st time - shy. Front of the church got supermarket & pasar pagi nearby.

2) SMK bought some stuffs very cheap. Like shower cap, forks & spoons, etc somewhere between 50 cents to NZ$4 (cauliflower & cabbage) .. SMK was so happy ...

3) SMK mentioned that alot of sales happening at weekend, some of her stuffs that she bought & ordered were on sale ... aiyahhhhh .... Never mind lar, now we know - next time buy at weekend.

4) They went to the beach for their packed from home sandwich breakfast. The beach has a few "tiered" section. Both the end of the beach has cliff and SMK saw bungalows - lots of seagulls "joined" their breakfast .. hahaha

UMM shared with her about the Oct NZ trip. Getting a few "bachelors" to join the trip .. hahaha .. the bachelors don't know what is the occasion yet - better !!! hahaha surprised them !!!

UMM shared about the burning of churches in MAL, the price of fuel going up for 2000 cc cars, and a bit of AU matters.

SMK also wants UMM to bring to her (1) "turnip stone brush" ... that kind of stone in her bathroom that shed off dead foot skin cell ... hahaha and (2) stew sweet pork cans .

UMM needs to write them down and transfer to masterlist or else can forget lar ... recall this method been used in ISO document control work flow ... hahaha.

UMM always had SMK in prayers day & nite & in every meals.

NZ church

Today SMK + kids went to a church nearby her place.

SMK said that the church has less than 100 ppl ... more like English Service. Very few asians and most of the ppl "lau-lau" (old) ... hahahaha...

NZ New car

Today SMK got her new "recond" 2005 Nissan Sunny for NZ$6,500 plus + a new number plate FFY276.

VOIP

Today is the 2nd time VOIP with SMK - we update lot of things.

SMK said that she may come back on Good Friday, for the 13485 training provided PM can get 7 participants .. so far 3 already.

So UMM will push PM to get the ppl cos UMM really missed SMK.

JMA + YSL Jan 2010

My only and dearest darling Yap Siow Ling,

“Love is patient; love is kind and envies no one.
Love is never boastful, nor conceited, nor rude;
never selfish, not quick to take offense.
There is nothing love cannot face;
there is no limit to its faith,
its hope, and endurance.
In a word, there are three things
that last forever: faith, hope, and love;
but the greatest of them all is love.”

For the past 1 1/2 years when we began to nurture our relationship, we have more thorns than roses ... but with our constant prayers, encouragements, sharing, faithfulness, and believed - our days were filled with more & more roses. No doubts there will be thorns as we continue to journey our life together for the next 40 years + 20 extra golden years ... hahaha ... but we shall overcome.

I always confessed that for us to be together is a miracle. The miracle that came from Heaven to earth.

Darling, what had happened in the past is history. What we need to focus now is our future. We made mistakes and some of them can be undo & some cannot be undo or redeemed.

We have our own issues, some issues can't be solved overnite, days, months or even years but as long as God is at our side - it is possible ... 1 step at a time with me holding you + you holding me.

I asked you what I can do for you cos' you are so self-sufficient. You said "We compliment each other".

You & me are now a new creation. In Romans 8:1 said, "Therefore NOW there is NO condemnation for those who are in Christ Jesus."

Darling, you will always be my heartbeat, the apple of my eyes, always beautiful & sexy and always 55kg to me.

You asked me whether I would still love you, praise you, admire your beauty when both of us grow older .... the answer is still YES !!

Darling, both of us have grown up over the years.

For you:

1) You've learnt to control your temper, pray more and open yourself to be loved once again.

2) You have "let go" the past hurts, brokenness, grief, sadness, betrayal, hatred and anger. And let God comes in & for me to share your life.

For me:

1) Know what it means to care & love someone deeply.

2) To PDCA in all things (sometimes drop-drop or blur-blur ... hahaha).

3) Share responsibilty and selfless.

In moving forward, we must break the chain of our past.

Let us saw the chain together with the help of the LORD.

Love4Ever

Ang Jau Meng

(02:13 pm - 14/01/2010)

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Sun and moon come out missed SMK

Afternoon went to SMK parent house and gam-gam SMK mom came back from hospital routine check up.

She asked me whether UMM think of SMK or not?

I told her, "The moment the sun comes out - I think of her + missed her, at night - the moment the moon comes out I also think of her + missed her"

Hmmm ... day + night lor ... hahaha

Take care of kids in NZ

Received SMS from SMK from NZ this morning asking whether UMM could go th NZ earlier to take care of the kids as there is a full time job available.

UMM replied, "no problem - u go ahead & apply the job". Even at that time, UMM was thinking about how he is going to leave his job here, what he is going to do there, where is he going to stay, etc .. but yet UMM always putting SMK needs as priority.

SMK is a miracle in UMM life

Started the morning cleaning up the house ... hmmm ... became a norm after been with SMK .. hahaha.

Later in the afternoon, as UMM sat down and reflected what had happened ... maybe this is the reason why God allowed the previous 2 of SMK maids to ran away .. hahaha

For the past 8 months or so, both of us worked together to clean, washing, cooking, outing, meals, watching movies, etc ... in these time also relationship between the kids + UMM also drawn closer.

Though there are still many days of life journey ahead of us, with God's help - we shall made it through.

Sometimes when bad or difficult things happened in our life causes hurt, angry and frustrated at the moment. But we don't know that it is actually a blessing in disguised.

Spending my whole life with SMK is the most honorable & beautiful things.

UMM always said that SMK is a miracle to UMM's life.

No one is as special as SMK - considerate, kind hearted, strong, soft, wise, beautiful, understanding and most of all ... has a full heart for God.

SMK - knowing you is the greatest moment in UMM's life.

Take Care in NZ.

tears from heaven

today is the 2nd day without SMK.

Woke up at 5:00 am, read Bible & SMS to SMK, and then went for a walk at the lake at 7 am.

Called Bernard Chen at NZ, and while talking with him, tears came out from UMM eyes when mentioning to Bernard to help SMK with some stuffs. And then it rained heavily here in Botanic.

On the phone, Bernard said that it is raining now at NZ which according to him is unusual during summer.

Maybe it is the same tears that flowed from UMM.

SMK leaving to NZ

UMM still stunned & could not believe that SMK had gone to N.Z tonite.Even as UMM is writing this entry, UMM heart is still pounding with unbelief.

Thank God that uncle Jee accompanied me tonite as UMM really "lost" without SMK besides him. The air of loneliness start to creep in and "missing" her is too much to bear.

Got back home at 11:45pm, write this blog and off to SMK's house .... to an empty house, without SMK to greet & hug UMM.

I remember a saying:

A house - not a home
A bed - not a sleep, etc ...

SMK, UMM misses u !!!!!

SMK farewell prayer and dinner

The new pastor Yap prayed for SMK and kids and UMM took photos. UMM purposely took camera today cos today also SMK + kids last Holy Communion Service with us.

SMK later said that she surprised that UMM brought camera ... hahaha

Later, the church leaders made appointment for her farewell dinner. UMM didn't join in cos' UMM is not in the pastoral board anymore + this farewell is for SMK + kids.

So UMM spent the nite install Bible into HTC and mp3.

Kiki bye-2

Today, UMM drove SMK dad lorry and sent KiKi away to Sson's ah kong house.

UMM doesn't feel awkward when reached their place, maybe due to UMM encounter with C a few days ago at SMK house.

Anyway, the past is history, now need to focus on future.

Tea time

After finishing the name list and phone numbers for the NZ related, UMM suddenly had the urged for a "tea-time" breaks.

We had it at the study room, and like always, UMM's "little brother" shoot up straight !! Hahaha..

We had our tea-break at the study room and later moved into the bathroom for our ultimate "S" moment.

We were so close and glued more than an elephant glue !!

Milky morning

We had our "intimacy" .... UMM said, "hmmmmm ... fresh "milk" ... hahaha

Spent the day alone

SMK + UMM spent the whole day packing the NZ stuffs, clean the house & format the 2 personal computers.

UMM fried eggs, sausages, toast the bread & milo for breakfast. Had cup noodles at home cos too tired to go out.

Went for 1 station for dinner (chicken chop) ... was quite late when we had our dinner .. around 10:30 pm.

It was a wonderful day & "honeymoon" ... hahaha

New Year with SMK at bed side

Happy New Year 2010 darling !!!

Waking up this morning with SMK at my bed side ... what a wonderful feeling !!

Both of us shared the same feeling.